Showing posts with label phobias. Show all posts
Showing posts with label phobias. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Doctor, Doctor, gimme the news!

Spent this past weekend with my Mom and had such a great time with her.
:)
I know I am not alone in my fear of the Doctor and going. But the more I talk about this with my friends, the more I realize that my super-duper-crazy-heightened fear of the Doctor is abnormal. And I suppose could be considered a phobia. 

The last time I went to the Doctor, I was eleven. Now, thankfully I've never had anything severely wrong with me that made me think I needed to see one. I finally got my blood drawn for the first time ever about two years ago. 

My close friend and once room mate who is a nurse never really bothered me about it. I assume if anyone is going to make a stink in my life about it - it's going to be her, right? Well, my current room mate found out and she's an EMT. I think I saw steam come out of her ears when she heard how old I was. Then I took to Twitter and a few people were so shocked. 

Apparently this isn't normal. But I'm SO SCARED TO GO. Dentist? Love. Give me a teeth cleaning everyday all day. Doctor? Pass. I don't want to hear would could potentially be wrong with me. In my head I envision the Dr. telling me I have a rare form of cancer that has spread and I have ten minutes to live. No thanks! 

The craziest part? I have insurance. I pay (a lot) of money for something I don't take advantage of. 

Lately (and especially after everyone scaring me even more for not going) I've felt "off". I feel like I need to see a Doctor and get a check up. Just to make sure everything's ok. I have spent much of my life fatigued, and it's getting worse. I am always tired. I wake up and I'm ready for a nap. I have no energy. And it didn't even dawn on me I could fix this. What?!

My new insurance packet and cards came in the mail today for the new year, and I think I'm going to put them to use. Finally.