Let's talk drama, girls! Oy.

I can admit that I'm still learning. Always learning. Currently I'm learning how to walk away with my head high. Or re-learning I should say. I've never really been one to retaliate. For years I've pretty much been a secret keeper and I allowed someone to keep me quiet. Not once did I seek out any kind of revenge or retaliation. In any situation really; no matter how big or little I always tell myself, "the Universe will balance out; karma". I don't need to do anything. But lately? Oh, lately it's been a different story. I wonder if other's have these troubles?

I felt so down and out and like the Universe wasn't working fast enough. I decided I would step in. If this person wanted to destroy me well then I was going to destroy them. Remember my entry about torching a friendship to the ground? Yeah. And I told myself not to look back and I did, regretfully. I got myself into this raging mess. I was ready for a war full of drama. I wasn't going to let someone think I was a lying basket case. If there's one thing I've ever prided myself on since I was little girl, it's been that I'm honest. Honest and open. So to have someone insinuate otherwise made me fume. How do I walk away without saying anything at all? For a moment I let people who meant absolutely nothing to me get the best of me. And I'm better than that. Why was this such a hard task for me? I've got who I want by my side, why do I care about people who are now the past and the strangers they currently have in their lives? I shouldn't. I don't. But sometimes it's aggravating to know in your heart of hearts that you are right and spoke out and no one believes because of what they're told and in turn you get called names.

So, here I am. Learning again. To walk away. It doesn't matter. They don't matter. They are no one. And I truly believe the Universe will balance itself back out. Karma, gals and gents. Karma. I tried to overstep it and push it along, but it's not my place. So, Karma, I'm giving it back up to you. It's your's. I'm sorry.

Let's end this with my newest obsession. I've been a fan of Ellie for a long while now. I've posted a song of her's last week. But I can't get her album outta my ears. Love at first play. Robyn has always had my heart. She always will. But I'm telling you, I'm making room for Ellie because my god. She's pretty amaze.

I watched this last night and fell in love all over again. Oh, Ellie. :)