Today was one of those days that I had to continuously remind myself that worrying was so last year. It doesn't get me anywhere. With worrying comes anxiety and before I know it, I've wasted a bunch of time. I don't have time to waste! No one does.
I also felt myself slipping into the past. Why don't I talk to this person? Why can't we be friends? Can we get it right this time? Oh, nostalgia. You hit me hard. Then I get annoyed that I sound like a broken record. Let go, Alex. You were almost there. I am there. I think sometimes I just like to reminisce which gets me thinking, you know?
On to the happy! Thursday I'm seeing Ellie Goulding and it makes me want to jump up and down and squeal like I'm fifteen. I may or may not have her on loop this week. I haven't been this stoked to go to a show since I went to see Robyn or Tegan and Sara. All independent, rockstar girls-- love them!
My plan was to just kind of free write tonight, but I don't think I have much else coming to my mind.
So we'll end with a Tegan and Sara song. Naturally, I'm in love; they can do no wrong. I may or may not have been listening to it non-stop along with Ellie.
I posted this picture earlier on Instagram for Throwback Thursday. It was taken probably in 2008/2009-ish by my darling friend, Cassie. It reminded me of those days that we worked at the Lighthouse in Ponce Inlet. We'd get out of work and take in the sunsetting on the river or enjoy the sounds of the ocean. Walking down the quiet beach town roads taking in all the scenery around us while chatting about life.
Later on we both moved to the same town about an hour away and would carpool to our college and to the Lighthouse if we worked the same shift. Cassie eventually moved back to her home state to finish school and now resides in California with her boyfriend.
Just one little picture had hundreds of memories rushing to me. I got so nostalgic! It made me think of a bunch of different memories from when I was younger. I'm sure this happens to everyone. It made me a little anxious realizing just how old I am (sometimes I feel like I'm still that awkward 16 year old girl). How I'm getting older and soon all of this will just be a memory too. Which is why I think I make it such a point to really "stop and smell the roses"; take in every moment and be present.
Christmas is right around the corner and while I planned on not procrastinating, I failed once again! This weekend I'm going to attempt shop with my list in my hand and get everyone's gifts. I refuse to get distracted with things I see that I would like for myself (I am guilty of buying work clothes like no other) or the house. Christmas, Christmas, Christmas!
Let's end this on a super fun and exciting note - Ellie Goulding will be here gracing my precious ears in a little more then ONE MONTH! AHHHH.
