Dealing with the unexpected.

How does one deal with an unexpected scary, sad, crazy situation? My instinct has always been to swoop in and fix it. Before you can say another word, I'm figuring out how to get to you, solve the problem, and make everything better. Then I'll cry with you, listen to you yell and scream, and maybe even chime in a time or two.

These past couple of days I've had one of those situations arise and it involved my best friend. Yes, I'm being vague. But if you know me or her, then you know exactly what I'm talking about. The second I got the text that she was not OK, I immediately flipped out. How do I get to her? She's on vacation currently and in another state. What do I do? How do I do it? Panic, panic, panic. She doesn't even have a phone right now. When I tell you that I went into full blown anxiety and sheer terror, I'm not exaggerating. All I needed to do was find out what was going on, and how I could help and I couldn't. I literally broke down and just started sobbing at work. I felt so lost and couldn't even imagine how my friend felt.

She's doing better now, but we aren't out of the woods yet. She and her baby need all the love, prayers, and support they can get thrown their way. I'm still really trying to cope with and accept the fact that I can't be there right now. Does anyone else get this way? I have a friend who openly admits she flees the situation. She runs and hides and avoids; not wanting to deal with any type of sadness, fear, etc. Whereas I dive in headfirst, I feel.

Anyway. If all goes well (again prayers, love, support), I should be able to fly up there mid-December. I've talked to her every day, but it's just not the same as being able to see her, hug her, sit next to her. Until then I cry for her and worry for her. If I could take away all of her feelings and take them on for her, I would. I woud go through and take all of her pain and hurt and worry just so she wouldn't have to.

Times like these really make me realize just how crazy and unexpected life can be.

Happy hearts,

Alex